Not Good Enough

Several times I've thought to myself, hmm, I could make a video blog, but I decided not to. There are two reasons. First is that my camera is really sucky and slow. I'm sure you've seen many times that it just keeps failing on me. The second reason is that it seems video blogging has gotten really popular, and I just feel like I'm not good enough, my ASL isn't good enough, and I just get demoralized about it. I feel like I'm just not enough. But I guess I could start again...but really I just feel like so many people are doing video blogs who are better than me, and I'm nothing, you know? I wish I could make a really high quality video blog like Robert Davila's President of Gallaudet blog, that's really awesome, I've seen his studio and it's very impressive. But I...I'm just nothing. I'm worth nothing, my video blog is worth nothing.

So it's possible that this is the last time I'm going to be filming myself, because I just feel like I'm not good enough. By the way, this time I'm using my new camera, my digital camera. I thought it would have a better image, not stuttering and freezing all the time. So I hope that'll be better.

Anyway, I don't want to force myself, to feel like I have to do a video blog. I don't want to force myself. Maybe if I get accepted to Gallaudet I'll start again, take a class in the computer department or something...

[And then the camera battery died.]